Hanging in there by a thread. Some sacrifice.

Well, winter break is over. Certainly now I'm back into this semester, another bunch of classes, another bunch of challenges. Wonderful. Sleepless nights and days where I question my productivity.

However I must be adamant with sticking to my goals. One step at a time. Even I have to lay off play time. Here goes to all of it.

On the onset of a new semester. New Resolutions.

For the onset of the new resolutions for this coming year I have proposed to myself. Some more realistic proposals:

1. I will exercise more often
2. I will be more diligent
3. I will contribute more towards my creative aspirations
4. I will lean more languages.

actually, no.

I exercise often
I am diligent
I do contribute to my creative aspirations
I am learning more than one language.

Got to go.

A small step.

I have to admit, I dread doing my programming assignment, I fear all the hard work, all the technical problems, mainly fear of the -unknown- factor. But yet again, any endeavor in anything involves uncertainty. Afterwards, after working on this particular assignment for about an hour and a half, I actually feel pretty good about it. Albeit whether I pass or fail the class for this semester, it will be all-in-all a learning experience. On the flip side, I will learn, and I will take small steps overall. One small step at a time. One small humility. Little things go. Bit by bit. I just need to slowly pick myself up.

I may be a bad programmer, but that is because I didn't put in the time.

I know my mistakes, it's time to take them on.

Calming Myself Down

With the onset of this semester I really need to take a step back and think about my actions so far. I know for sure that I have lost a majority of my interest in my major. And that I honestly do not see myself in the future using my major.

I find myself in a funnel, rather than a cross-roads.

I made a stupid mistake. Now I need to rectify those mistakes.

Mixed emotions building. I'll continue later.

An introduction

Let me start this off: I am a very horrible, horrible programmer. I'm a major that I don't particularly enjoy but somehow ended up in because I do have some sort of Stockholm syndrome attachment to it. This will be a private little blog of my trials.  Revelations. And my adventure as a struggling computer programmer. Wish me luck